Wednesday, May 14, 2003
Machine |11:44 AM| Big suprise, I take a drug called Effexor. It works by affecting serotonin and norepinephrine levels in my head. It's an anti-depressent, but I wasn't just depressed, I was also extremely happy. But going from depressed to whatever at the drop of a hat isn't healthy.
Readers from a while back know that if I go off the drugs, I've got about 24-36 hours before bad shit starts to happen. Headaches -> loss of orientation -> REALLY BAD HEADACHES -> dunno.
The issue I have, is that at one point I was off my drugs for 3 days. I just happened to spend a lot of time around Portal. I felt fine, but after I left, the headaches kicked in immediately. Withdrawl was sudden and very painful.
Being around her was having the same effect as mood altering drugs. Emotions are mechanical, a complex interaction of chemicals, and apparently nothing more. I find that depressing, though I understand the truth at the heart of it.
This is not to say that emotions mean any less, or that how I feel about someone is devalued. It just takes a little while for it to all sink in.
Give Rilo Kiley a shot.
I'm also getting into an Emo (GAH!) band called "The Exit".
Machine |11:44 AM| Big suprise, I take a drug called Effexor. It works by affecting serotonin and norepinephrine levels in my head. It's an anti-depressent, but I wasn't just depressed, I was also extremely happy. But going from depressed to whatever at the drop of a hat isn't healthy.
Readers from a while back know that if I go off the drugs, I've got about 24-36 hours before bad shit starts to happen. Headaches -> loss of orientation -> REALLY BAD HEADACHES -> dunno.
The issue I have, is that at one point I was off my drugs for 3 days. I just happened to spend a lot of time around Portal. I felt fine, but after I left, the headaches kicked in immediately. Withdrawl was sudden and very painful.
Being around her was having the same effect as mood altering drugs. Emotions are mechanical, a complex interaction of chemicals, and apparently nothing more. I find that depressing, though I understand the truth at the heart of it.
This is not to say that emotions mean any less, or that how I feel about someone is devalued. It just takes a little while for it to all sink in.
Give Rilo Kiley a shot.
I'm also getting into an Emo (GAH!) band called "The Exit".
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