Tuesday, October 23, 2001
|9:25 PM|
I'd been a bit pissy as of late because I lost that subtle belief in an afterlife. I realized that I had no idea what an afterlife could possibly be, so therefore how I could believe in its existence? I won't go into a long list of realizations and deep thoughts that got me back to "super-cool", but the gist of it all is: The existence of some other form of personality storage than the human brain is very possible, though obviously some of the sense of self is obviously physical. (The effects of medication, head injuries, etc) The liklihood of an after death sense of me being entirely changed is also very possible and what I think is likely the case. Peope change over time, sometimes drastically, I can handle that. And most important (for the time being) an afterlife is one thing that you can put off dealing with and not be guilty. It's not like I've got a choice, I've already lowered the restraining bar. I don't have to give a damn about what happens because there is no sense in worrying about something I have no control over.
Dang, it feels good to know that.
Hmm. I had a bunch of stuff written down at work, but I left my notepad in my haste to beat rush hour draffic. Drag. Oh! I am writing. My creativity on that front has re-awakened. What I'm writing is an experiment, a story with no deliberate symbolism. When it's past the dreadful crap stage I might just post a link. A formatted one, I promise.
I bet
Vorpal $25 that he couldn't go 2 weeks without a cigarette. Since the divine hand of something or other dropped a $20 in Vorpal's path the last time we made a bet like this, I have upped the ante by a sufficient amount to rule out mere chance. I collected Vorpal's ash trays, lighters, cigarette case, more lighters and a book of matches from his apartment. I'm going to mail them to Tahiti, or possibly Australia.
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//That should close up the previous year.
///Say this is the swap from 2001 to 2002, that should close up the 2001 links.
///Problem is, we also need to close up the final month links too.
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